waaaahooo.  i've already had three goals in field hockey.. and we've only played two games.  which is extremely good seeing as it took me the whole season just to get two goals last season.  coach said i was playing like an "animal".  in a good way.  that made me happy.  haha.  the past week has just been exhausting.  this weekend i wasn't allowed to do anything cause my mom was on a cleaning rampage and i somehow got sucked into her black hole of garbage bags, windex, and furniture polish. blah.  i did go to the mall today.   i got the acoustic fall out boy ep/dvd, the new saves the day cd, some more brown pants (that addiction is out of control), and some flannel pj pants with hearts all over them.  theyre sweeeet.  nothing like retail therapy.  i really hate shopping lately.  but i like having new things.. if that makes any sense?  i think my mom just saw the toll all of this shit thats been going on.. that no one really knows about. but it's divorce shit.  has been taking on me.  not because the divorce itself upsets me.  but because it upsets my mom and brother.  and i always have to be there to pick up the slack, cook, clean, ect.   in addition to other stupid things i allow to upset and stress me out.  so now at least i can put my sweet pj pants on and lay around listening to my new cds?  haha. i know.  it doesnt solve my problems.. but it's good to know my mom still cares whether or not i'm happy.  because i was starting to question that for a while. 

also.. i was messing around with the layout on this bad boy..cause i wanted to make it more costom-y.  and it obviously didn't work.  in addition to this..i messed up my comments section.. so now when anyone leaves a comment it doesnt show it and i can't reply.  and i dont know how to fix it.   rar.  i'm thinking it may be time for me to start using the live journal account i made a million years ago and never used.  as soon as i can figure out how to make it pretty.. which i can't.  so if any of you technologically gifted geniouses out there are reading this and want to give me a hint about how i might go about doing this let me know. i will not write in an ugly journal.