first day wasnt so bad.  once i actually got there and had a joyful reunion with scotty kyle and liv.. and eventually the whole rest of the crew.  decent classes.  my english teacher reminds me of what i think barney would be like after going to college and taking lots and lots of speed.  lunch is sweet minus the absence of liv and ally:(  it feels weird not being the freshman.. and not having the old seniors there.. but being a sophomore is good stuff too.  im more comfortable with myself.  i know how things work. it's not as stressful so its easier to have fun.  i refuse to let myself waste this year being depressive and retarded.  i've wasted too much of my life this way.

i'm also starting to make amends with a certain someone.  but nothing is ever final.  for every "i'm sorry"  there's been a thousand more "i hate yous".  it's all numbers really.  ninteynine percent of the time the things we say are sarcastic.  one-hundred percent of the time neither of us have any idea what's going on.  on the upside i may just pass algebra.  on the down side were nothing but a cycle.  everyone said all along that we were going to drive eachother over the edge. and we have so many times.  i waste all my time saving him from me.  he wastes all his time saving me from him. something so riddiculous has never made so much sense.